I’m a flow girl. Yoga, rhymes, water, mental linking: I’m moved by movement. Something groundbreaking has stirred me recently — the glorious experience of Kundalini Yoga. It has also been a mirror.
What an awakening! Free, flowing, warm bodies waving about with passion and grace, less any chaos or franticness. I’ve been to every class since that first one and absolutely don’t want to miss a single one in the future.
On Monday “we” danced about on our mats. Well, I watched 30+ people fully in the zone and enjoying the bodies we reside in. They had a kick-ass time. I danced (er, postured) and thought, “F*ck I’m uncomfortable.”
Now if these people are warm water, I’m embarrassed to say that I am ice. I felt stiff and reticent around them. And I have a background in dance! Doesn’t mean a thing if you can’t let loose, relax, and not worry about being so perfectly contained, good, appropriate.
I’ve got a LOT of work to do. Untangling, loosening, freeing. I hold my feelings close, protect myself at great length, and generally keep everyone at leg’s distance (not a typo, I do mean leg, not arm!).
That said, I know myself extremely well. I know that I gravitate toward specific things for a reason — because there’s more work to do and more to learn.
Cripes, this isn’t going to be easy, but I know a sign when I see one. And this one says “Practice Kundalini Now!”
artwork credit: Myztico Campo