Post Yoga Teacher Training Depression (PYTTD) defined: a form of gloominess which descends upon a yogini or yogi after her/his rebirth during Yoga Teacher Training. PYTTD often occurs soon after the completion of training, the duration of which may vary. Symptoms can include confusion, frustration, feeling lost, sadness, and extreme fatigue.
I finished my 6-month 200-hour teacher training yesterday. I expected to feel elated, relieved, and excited. I knew there would be wistfulness, sadness. However, I wasn’t exactly prepared to find myself incredibly down in the dumps or for this to descend with such haste.
I’m sure stress, lack of sleep, and cortisol overload have much to contribute to this ennui (if I even am slaked). But there’s more. It’s deeper than bone-weariness. I was having a beautiful love affair with yoga, with my practice. And now this bed is cold. I’m alone. Or it certainly feels painfully so.
I know there’s more ahead. That my practice has been catapulted to new heights. This isn’t an end, it’s a beginning. But right now, I’m thickly embedded in the mire. Hello mud.
What about you, wise community of heart? Did you feel this way when your TT ended? What did you do to dust it all off and get back to your luminous selves?
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